Unwritten letter.

I was browsing through my files today, and I found a file titled 'Unwritten Letter' that I wrote for my health class. Okay maybe you could call it 'Unsent Letter' :) I don't remember anything that I wrote and I don't want to know what I wrote. For the sake of embracing my past I'd like to share this with you guys. But remember this is like a year ago and I was heart broken and yes I was badly hurt. P.S: It's written in white. You know what to do. :P

Hi     ,

    It’s been a while since we talked. There are so many things that I wanted you to know and ask. Since the last day you called me and we end up fighting, what’s that all about? I’m not sure why. We never had a chance to talk about it and I never had the chance to speak for myself. Well, actually it was you who throw away that chance. It was you who decided for us to be like this. We only know each other for a few days and we never had the chance to get to know each other better. In that few days you showed that you loved me and said that you love me. You wrote me a song; you sang it to me, you always call me to check up on me when I didn’t text you. You made everything perfect. You made me feel special; feel that I’m lucky to have you in my life.

    All the sudden, everything changes, you just leave me hanging on your words, your memories and your song. You started avoiding me. For one week I patiently wait and give you time for you to think. That day when we talk about our problem, I don’t understand when you said, “I’m not leaving you because I don’t love you.” you also said that we are “always friends,” but on that same day you still acting weird and you treat me as we didn’t know each other, like I’m a stranger to you. We didn’t talked like we used to and obviously you are avoiding me. It’s like there’s no point we talk about it that night. Even thought you know my view on guys and relationship. You made me opened my heart for you, and then you left me. I know that you are not ready for a relationship, so am I. I just want us to be friends.

    Then two months passed by, out of nowhere you invited me to come to Nashville for my spring break so that we can hang out. You’re acting weird those two months. I don’t know what game you’re playing. You didn’t even come and visit me for your spring break and you expect that I would come. I don’t know what exactly that you want. Why do you act like this?

    Just so you know, I’m doing great now and you don't owe me any explanation. I also don’t need you to be my stressor. I wish we never had known each other. Take care of your self.

Sincerely,

Syairah Kamaruddin

He was like a ghost; haunting me when I'm weak and fragile and vulnerable 
and have no strength to fight back and wayyyy so into him.
I can guarantee you that won't happen again. At least before I'm married.

But, it's all good. I'm OVER IT!

Random question of the day;

• Do you really think I wrote that letter? Do you seriously thought I had that kind of feeling in the 'DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART'?

St. Louis, MISSOURI.

Dear strangers,

I had

FUN. fun. FuN!

Lunch: Panda Express.

We ordered Fried Rice, Chaw Mein, Broccoli Beef, Kung Pao Chicken and Beijing Beef.

Finish after- 10 min.

Walk by:

St. Louis Hard Rock.

Movie: The Green Hornet

3D

I'm NOT even trying.

the STARE.

ICEE. FTW

swagga

I'm cooler than you.

creepy cira

shoelace of AWESOMENESS.

Last STOP: Cheese Cake Factory.

P/S: I do not like Cheese Cake.

Random question of the day:

• Who's your BIATCH?

TUESDAY AFTERNOON

Hi, Hey, Hello. 

Today was pretty much boring typical day.

But SKYPE make it all better.

Today's HUMILIATION VICTIM is...

my high school friend,
TAUFIQ.
LOL  :D

I hope I don't get in trouble posting this.

:)

Trying to get him make GOOFY FACES.
1st TRIAL.

Awww man!

He says 'CHEESE...!!!'

MISSION ACCOMPLISH!
:D

<3<3<3

JUST FOR LAUGH, NO HEART FEELINGS.

Random question of the day:

• Would you be a friendless loser or have a lot friends who secretly hates you? 

H.A.I.R.C.U.T

I've been bitching about my long hair since last year.
I hate it long, but sometimes I love it long.

I hate waiting for my hair to dry after I washed it.

So I've been wanting to cut it short. But I wasn't ready yet.

Since it's already 2011, so I thought that this is the right time to cut my hair, and I choose today.

I went there with my brother and my friend. I want this one messy choppy haircut.

But Ali, the girl working there doesn't agree with me. She said the haircut looks like 'somebody cut your hair while you're sleeping'. LOL

I really like it because it's messy and short.
I did have a second thought, but I just like it and I did go for it.

And now my hair is short, LIKE really short.

BEFORE

AFTER

So what do you think? Does it look different?

FOREVER POST

Okay Hey, been busy. I know, sucks right? well what can I do.

I got weddings, families come and visit, hanging out. Maybe I should should take some time off. :)
I have a lot to share about my road trip.
I'll tell you guys later.

Okay BYE!

TAKE IT EASY. <3<3<3

Random question of the day:

• When is the last time you wet your bed?

FREE AT LAST

Ahhhhh... I'm free!

Even though I was supposed to finish my final on Monday

but my college decided to closed on that Monday

and reschedule Mondays' finals to today (Friday).

I'm still glad that finals are over. and semester has come to an end.

I need a break from books, not that I read them. LOL

Well I hope I didn't flunk my finals. I'm not gonna get straight A's that's for sure.

But I do hope I'm gonna at least pass all my classes. 'cross my finger.'

Actually I have nothing, nada, zero! to write today.

I just need some rest since I've been staying up all night last night.

Now is the right time to redeem all my sleepless night.

TTYL

<3

<3

<3

GOODNIGHT!

Random question of the day:

• How do you study for your finals? are you a last minutes person? or are you the stay up all night kind of person? or your the type that do your studying a week early?

THIS IS HOW WE ROLL!

DATE: DECEMBER 13th, 2010

TIME: 9pm - 3am

SPOT: Morris Library - Jimmy John's - Morris Library

BOOKS

MUI

SYAIRAH

SYAHMIE

STUDYING

FOR

FINALS

MUI's IDK what's the name

SYAHMIE's Turkey Tom

SYAIRAH's Big John

MUI's Full face

SYAHMIE's studying

SYAIRAH's happy full face
(the guy is cute)

WOW! SERIOUSLY?

I wasn't very lucky today. :(

I went to the library today as usual. Guess it was my destiny today
to sat next to an Asian man.

A middle age Asian man with grey hair. He looks like a PhD. student.

Sadly his behavior shocked me.

Here's the deal. My friend and I were talking, chit-chating about
her brother's upcoming wedding.

Anyway this man was like lifted his left butt and sat on his right butt
then rudely and purposely FARTED. 

Like sooo loud and it goes like this 'PROOT PROOOOTT PROOOTTTTTT!!!'

We were like what the #^%$^%&!

It was DISGUSTING!

Luckily it didn't smell. So we were glad that we didn't suffocate to death. HAHA

But it's all goooood.

Come to think of it, it was actually pretty funny.

LOL. 

Okay TTYL

Have a nice FART-FREE-day.<3

Random question of the day:

• What is the nastiest smell you ever smell? 

I can list mine like one page long but one of the worst is 

totally the shit came out from a

'Petai eating monster' that's just plain evil shit!

WHITE SNOW WHITE

Hey!! Guess what? I was up all night. 

Then I got on Facebook this morning like now. 

I saw my friend's status saying it's snowing! 

NO KIDDING it is. and it's still snowing. :D 

• Here some of the pictures around my apartment that I took.

from my room

from my livingroom

and another one

outside of my apartment

outside again

and again

about the same

pftt it's getting boring

I'm in pain

snow close up (I tried)

but that's NOT ALL

SURPRISE!

• I also recoded a video. And it's still snowing.

around my apartment

this is from outside of my window

Okay, bubbye . TTYL <3