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   In exactly ONE minute its officially April 28th. But I'm not born yet, until its 11.50pm tonight. So yeah, another year passing by. Without my mom, my dad, and my sisters. Just me and my younger brother. I'm very great full ever since I'm a little girl I'm lucky enough to always have a birthday cake every single year. My dad will always came home from work with a cake and a present. Even when my mom and dad were having a difficult time financially. We just moved in our first home after 4 years we lived with my grandmother since we got back from the states. I remember, it was my 8th or 9th birthday, my dad came home with just Wall's Viennetta ice cream in replace for my birthday cake that year. Remembering that year burst me to tears, I can't even express it with words how I am great full to have my awesomess parents around while growing up, to grew up in a loving family, and feel their unconditional love. Every breath I'm taking, every tears I shed, every heartache I felt, every laughter in my life, every smile I see and give, every small little deeds I did, I owe it to them. Nothing I can do can repay what they given me. 

    The last time I was with my mom and dad and my sisters was back in 2008. I was turning 18, huge number for me but I'm still the same little girl that always waiting for my dad to come home with a cake and a present. August that year I started my college life here, I know nothing is gonna be the same. I turned 19 with just Kei and Yeh my only family here. It's not the same but it was as hard I thought it will be. I wasn't expecting anything, but for them to remember and also they are my only family, was good enough for me. The cake tradition  is still there. And I love both of them for that. And as the wonderful years passed by, from 19 to 20 to 21 and tomorrow 22. It has been the greatest and I will remember it as long as my memory part of my brain still good to go. InsyaAllah. 

    But this year is different, I don't want anything I just want ibu and ayah. I miss them so much. InsyaAllah I can keep a huge smile on my face. cause I'm good at it. Had a lot of practice. Wasalam. 

Sunday! Team DODOL went FATTOS

Date: April 8th, 2012

Places: QQ Bubble Tea and Kei's Living Room

Time: Sometime afternoon

Kak Chah and Abg Sham's drawing on
the wall in  QQ Bubble Tea.

Kei's exquisite drawing for
QQ Bubble Tea before she graduate.

Azim's drawing, sooo ummm IDK. Cartoonish.

Kei . Zariff

Pineapple + Apple

Yeah! I'm HOT like that.

Dodols

Thank YOU Aishah.

Stuffed tofu, I guess?

Yummy! Yummy! 100% yet?

So last Saturday, randomly and spontaneously I feel like baking. So called my mom for the recipe. I was expecting a secret family recipe or something, but ehh she used the recipe online. I'll put the link on the end of this post.

Hours later... TAADAAA! the kitchen was a mess. The sink was half full, well it still is. 

Managed to clean this up. :)

Buuuuut... I baked the AWESOMESS CARROT CAKE EVER!! Mhmm, like I feel so awesome and I know I am awesome like that. :D So had this 'dodol' try it out, well honestly it was a surprise for him, see if I can beat the one supposedly "THE BEST AND THE ONLY CARROT CAKE" he ever had. BOOYAH!! I scored it. Alhamdulillah. No need to spend RM8 for a slice of your ex-best and ex-only carrot cake anymore. While you can get it free. Like my ibu said "Free food always sedap". It's offficial now I might not be the smartest girl in my class. But I'm sure a good cook and an awesome baker. :P

Freshly baked from the oven.

Abdul Azim, tell me you love it or I'll make sure this is the last thing you gonna eat  through your mouth. :D

Feel free to try the recipe, make a carrot cake lover fond to you. <3

http://www.joyofbaking.com/CarrotCake.html

Random question of the day:

What kind of secret ingredient you usually put in a cake?

Puppy love.

Ever wonder how some couple started with just a puppy love then it grew to a real true love. And some couple started with an inttention of love and end up getting hurt. Remembering my puppy lover its just to cute. Being 9, thought you're inlove with a boy in another class and ride the same bus to and back from school. But he doesn't know you had been crushing on him the whole year. All the sudden you hear romours that he's  kinda into another girl. 1st boy. 1st crush. 1st heartache. Now, millions of years had passed and he's not even with the girl he liked and he's on your facebook friend list and still have no idea that you once had a crush on him. Saying 'Hi' just gonna be weird. And seeing him  as a man and you realized what was there that make you like him so much to even shed a tear for him back then when you were 9. It's silly when you think it back. How pure the feelings was as a kid? Why can't  all puppy love turn into true love.

.. Wonders ..

Sometimes the heart just wants what it wants. But does it worth the risk to get it broken?

Everything comes with a price, it's just the matter of you willing or not to pay the price.

Men are simple creatures. But they think women are complicated. Women too are simple creature. But we think men don't even bother to understand. But the reality is we both have different natures.

Come to think of it, do perfect relationship really exist? What will it cost to have that 'happily ever after' relationship? As we grew older everything gets more complicated. The broken hearted tend to shut their hearts

close. The ones who never had their heart broken just can't wait to at least feels how it feels like. And the heart breaker just around, breaking more and more hearts. It's just the perfect cycle. How can two people really stop loving each other? It is even possible? Or they just feels like they're missing out on things when they are tied up together. Or they just found something new and more exciting. Does excitement matter in a relationship?No one will ever understand how our hearts work. It's like a maze with no way out, no game over, you just have to make sure you win.

MAGICMAN CHECKLIST

1. Healthy dose of self-esteem

2.Fashion sense

3. Spontaneous

4. Smart

5. Travels to exotic locations on a whim

6. Athletic

7. Sexy voice

8. Plays a sexy musical instrument
9. Same taste in food
10. Witty statements on the tip of his tongue 

11. Public fights and torrid make-up sex
12. Puts passion above common sense

Does he really exist? Is he out there somewhere?

If he is, he's gonna be my own personal Bruno Mars. :D

Every girl needs their own Bruno Mars.