Unwritten letter.

I was browsing through my files today, and I found a file titled 'Unwritten Letter' that I wrote for my health class. Okay maybe you could call it 'Unsent Letter' :) I don't remember anything that I wrote and I don't want to know what I wrote. For the sake of embracing my past I'd like to share this with you guys. But remember this is like a year ago and I was heart broken and yes I was badly hurt. P.S: It's written in white. You know what to do. :P

Hi     ,

    It’s been a while since we talked. There are so many things that I wanted you to know and ask. Since the last day you called me and we end up fighting, what’s that all about? I’m not sure why. We never had a chance to talk about it and I never had the chance to speak for myself. Well, actually it was you who throw away that chance. It was you who decided for us to be like this. We only know each other for a few days and we never had the chance to get to know each other better. In that few days you showed that you loved me and said that you love me. You wrote me a song; you sang it to me, you always call me to check up on me when I didn’t text you. You made everything perfect. You made me feel special; feel that I’m lucky to have you in my life.

    All the sudden, everything changes, you just leave me hanging on your words, your memories and your song. You started avoiding me. For one week I patiently wait and give you time for you to think. That day when we talk about our problem, I don’t understand when you said, “I’m not leaving you because I don’t love you.” you also said that we are “always friends,” but on that same day you still acting weird and you treat me as we didn’t know each other, like I’m a stranger to you. We didn’t talked like we used to and obviously you are avoiding me. It’s like there’s no point we talk about it that night. Even thought you know my view on guys and relationship. You made me opened my heart for you, and then you left me. I know that you are not ready for a relationship, so am I. I just want us to be friends.

    Then two months passed by, out of nowhere you invited me to come to Nashville for my spring break so that we can hang out. You’re acting weird those two months. I don’t know what game you’re playing. You didn’t even come and visit me for your spring break and you expect that I would come. I don’t know what exactly that you want. Why do you act like this?

    Just so you know, I’m doing great now and you don't owe me any explanation. I also don’t need you to be my stressor. I wish we never had known each other. Take care of your self.

Sincerely,

Syairah Kamaruddin

He was like a ghost; haunting me when I'm weak and fragile and vulnerable 
and have no strength to fight back and wayyyy so into him.
I can guarantee you that won't happen again. At least before I'm married.

But, it's all good. I'm OVER IT!

Random question of the day;

• Do you really think I wrote that letter? Do you seriously thought I had that kind of feeling in the 'DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART'?

JGL. SMF. JS. CMM.

4 guys or should I say man

randomly pop out of my brain.

<3

SEXY MAN

There should be more, but I don't feel like sharing.

:P

Some faces that I would marry. :)

Random question of the day:

• What would you rate your face, your body, and your personality? from scale 1 to 10.

St. Louis, MISSOURI.

Dear strangers,

I had

FUN. fun. FuN!

Lunch: Panda Express.

We ordered Fried Rice, Chaw Mein, Broccoli Beef, Kung Pao Chicken and Beijing Beef.

Finish after- 10 min.

Walk by:

St. Louis Hard Rock.

Movie: The Green Hornet

3D

I'm NOT even trying.

the STARE.

ICEE. FTW

swagga

I'm cooler than you.

creepy cira

shoelace of AWESOMENESS.

Last STOP: Cheese Cake Factory.

P/S: I do not like Cheese Cake.

Random question of the day:

• Who's your BIATCH?

TUESDAY AFTERNOON

Hi, Hey, Hello. 

Today was pretty much boring typical day.

But SKYPE make it all better.

Today's HUMILIATION VICTIM is...

my high school friend,
TAUFIQ.
LOL  :D

I hope I don't get in trouble posting this.

:)

Trying to get him make GOOFY FACES.
1st TRIAL.

Awww man!

He says 'CHEESE...!!!'

MISSION ACCOMPLISH!
:D

<3<3<3

JUST FOR LAUGH, NO HEART FEELINGS.

Random question of the day:

• Would you be a friendless loser or have a lot friends who secretly hates you? 

H.A.I.R.C.U.T

I've been bitching about my long hair since last year.
I hate it long, but sometimes I love it long.

I hate waiting for my hair to dry after I washed it.

So I've been wanting to cut it short. But I wasn't ready yet.

Since it's already 2011, so I thought that this is the right time to cut my hair, and I choose today.

I went there with my brother and my friend. I want this one messy choppy haircut.

But Ali, the girl working there doesn't agree with me. She said the haircut looks like 'somebody cut your hair while you're sleeping'. LOL

I really like it because it's messy and short.
I did have a second thought, but I just like it and I did go for it.

And now my hair is short, LIKE really short.

BEFORE

AFTER

So what do you think? Does it look different?

LARGER SIZE NOT ALWAYS BETTER

So today I thought that maybe a large glass of Rose Water would be a good idea.

I WAS WRONG!

Can you even imagine how can I finish that one whole class. 

I was worry if I'm going to explode if I chug the whole class.

But I tried it though, plus I got BRAIN FREZZEEEE!!

Anyway,

Do you really think that larger size is better? 

NO WAY!

Some things are better small. It was a pain.

So have a nice a day. BYE!

TTYL. <3<3<3

Random question of the day:

• What is the largest meal you ever had?

FOREVER POST

Okay Hey, been busy. I know, sucks right? well what can I do.

I got weddings, families come and visit, hanging out. Maybe I should should take some time off. :)
I have a lot to share about my road trip.
I'll tell you guys later.

Okay BYE!

TAKE IT EASY. <3<3<3

Random question of the day:

• When is the last time you wet your bed?

ADVENTURE ROAD TRIP!

December 27th, 2010 - January 1st, 2011

Carbondale, IL - Nashville, TN - Gatlinburg, TN - Atlanta, GA - Panama City Beach, FL