Best WEEKEND!

Last Saturday was my 22nd birthday, I was fooled by everybody. I didn't even noticed that they planned something that night. I thought it was just a gathering for Abg Syam's friend from Champaign, but when I got there the door was looked, so I knocked and while waiting, some of the guys were outside so I talked to them a bit. When the door was unlocked and I turned the door knob and pushed the door a little bit and I saw everyone was in the living room screaming 'Happy Birthday!' facing me standing outside. I was stunned and it made my eyes water. They have balloons and Molten Chocolate Cupcake not to forget the never ending candles. We took pictures of me being a baby, everything was normal that day, people wishes me Happy Birthday and stuff. So I thought maybe this year there's no budget to spend money on birthday party. But that was not all, I was talking to a friend blah blah blah and he pointed something behind me, as I turn I so a huge pink basket wrapped with a clear plastic wrapper, it was a gift from everyone. I can't even remember what I felt the moment I saw their faces. But I really-really appreciate every single moment of it. <3

All the gifts.

Grey Spongebob I heart nerds T-shirt.
Mr.Puppet Kermit the Frog baseball T-shirt.
Yellow Despicable Me Minion T-shirt.
Blue I Did It But I'm Blaming You T-shirt. (which they say it is so me)
2 pairs of new socks. RANDOM!

Thanks Abg Syam and Kak Chah for this lovely set and the DIY birthday card.
Can't wait to find a time and pamper myself. One and  a half hour shower.

So after I opened the presents from 'everyone' and the present from Abg Syam and Kak Chah. They asked me to close my eyes cause they have another surprise for me. So I did and... this I what I got.. =D OMG!!

A pair of hermit crab from my lovely big sister (Nurul Asmui).
I love them. <3

I named the male (blue shell) Cappie,
and the female (yellow shell) is still nameless. :( 

Before I forget I also got a present from Azim, a Kinder Bueno chocolate bar. YUMMY! Its not much cause he's saving for a car, but the thought that counts. I can't find a word to describe my feelings. All I know I love them all and they mean the world to me. Thanks for doing all of this for me. I feel loved. I love you guys too. <3 I know I will never forget this ever. I still have the terharu feeling and still have the sebak dihati that can't be expressed. I know they went all out cause Kei is graduating and going back to Malaysia and get married in December. This probably the last birthday we gonna celebrate together. :'(

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Okay... enough with the sad part. I wanna go on with my story, so it a little past midnight so we all say bye and salam-salam each other. I went home, went to my room and there was another surprise for me. A lion gift bag and an album with a picture of me on the cover. Three surprises in one night that I might get a heart attack. A gift from at that time I don't know who was it from. They were place on my unmade bed, kind of embarrassing knowing that the person actually see my room so messy. So I took out my camera.

Surprise awaits

So I waited for Azim to get home cause our skype was on and obviously I can see him when he came in the room to open the presents that I'm pretty sure are from him. I so didn't expect that he bought me the Taz polaroid camera. But he did, he actually did. OMG! I'm so happy can't stop smiling, I even thought that it was just the box and he's just messing with my emotions. I can't stop thanking him for the gift.

A Taz polaroid camera, just what I wanted and
a bonus sentimental album by dodol sewel. AA.
The content of the album are confidential.
Thank you! I love ALL of it!

The dodol who is responsible for being the 

AWESOMESS BEST-FRIEND EVER!

He so gonna kill me for this. :D

P/S: I love you.

Whatever you say or do,

You never gonna win this war that you created,

The only way to win is REDHA.

A minute left.

   In exactly ONE minute its officially April 28th. But I'm not born yet, until its 11.50pm tonight. So yeah, another year passing by. Without my mom, my dad, and my sisters. Just me and my younger brother. I'm very great full ever since I'm a little girl I'm lucky enough to always have a birthday cake every single year. My dad will always came home from work with a cake and a present. Even when my mom and dad were having a difficult time financially. We just moved in our first home after 4 years we lived with my grandmother since we got back from the states. I remember, it was my 8th or 9th birthday, my dad came home with just Wall's Viennetta ice cream in replace for my birthday cake that year. Remembering that year burst me to tears, I can't even express it with words how I am great full to have my awesomess parents around while growing up, to grew up in a loving family, and feel their unconditional love. Every breath I'm taking, every tears I shed, every heartache I felt, every laughter in my life, every smile I see and give, every small little deeds I did, I owe it to them. Nothing I can do can repay what they given me. 

    The last time I was with my mom and dad and my sisters was back in 2008. I was turning 18, huge number for me but I'm still the same little girl that always waiting for my dad to come home with a cake and a present. August that year I started my college life here, I know nothing is gonna be the same. I turned 19 with just Kei and Yeh my only family here. It's not the same but it was as hard I thought it will be. I wasn't expecting anything, but for them to remember and also they are my only family, was good enough for me. The cake tradition  is still there. And I love both of them for that. And as the wonderful years passed by, from 19 to 20 to 21 and tomorrow 22. It has been the greatest and I will remember it as long as my memory part of my brain still good to go. InsyaAllah. 

    But this year is different, I don't want anything I just want ibu and ayah. I miss them so much. InsyaAllah I can keep a huge smile on my face. cause I'm good at it. Had a lot of practice. Wasalam. 

AsianeatsRice

Oh rice is soooo gooood. And I'm such an awesome cook. What else can I say, except alhamdulillah.. I'm awesome like that. 

Night-night I'm hungry after work, I cook this. 2 in 1 dish.
Kobis masak lemak + udang masak lemak = udang masak lemak kobis =D

An ABDUL vs. 3 other ABDULS

Skypemovienight;
Movie: Tiga Abdul (P.Ramlee)
Year: 1964
Duration: ~100 min
Purpose:  Match between an Abdul and 3 other Abduls. (Honestly, we were bonding)

Excited much Abdul?

I guess this was at one of funny part.

Dude, you're trying waaay too hard to look cute(like me). :D

Got cooties?

Umm... this was just indescribable.

zzzZZzzZzZZzzzZzZZzZZz?? NO WAY! How? It was 'Tiga Abdul'.

How high were you?

Cooties on your head too?

HAHA. Guess your losing to the other Abduls.

Pooping face!

Don't remember why this actually happen. I was more like WATAFISHCAKE!!
But...
We always have fun doing pretty much anything and everything. He's such a great guy best-friend.

Ugliest face mode : ONN

Letter to YOU.

Dear buah hati a.k.a future husband,

   Assalamualaikum, I'm writing this so when you come into my life you will know that you are the one for me.

I would like to get the most expensive diamond ring, when you ask me to marry you. But instead of that I want you to make me feel like I'm worth the diamond ring. I would like to have a fancy car. But instead I want you to care for me as long as you will care for a car. I would want a lot of extra stuff, a huge house with two stories garage for our cars, a beautiful kitchen with fancy stuff (dishwasher, all the stuff for baking, awesomess stove in the market) a women can ever ask for. A gorgeous landscape around our home. But instead, I would rather have you not give me all of those and give me all of you. Something that money can't buy. Let our life be about you and me and us.

With LOVE,

Your Buah Hati.

65:28:45

A lil bit longer. 

PSYCHO!![ranting]

Dear psycho ex-girlfriend,


YOU ARE FUCKING CRAZY! You guys been broken up since February, get over it! I know its was a 4 years relationship. But, wake the fuck up! he doesn't love you. And he never even loved you. Why the fuck do you say you're okay when the fact is you have some twisted shit going on in you fucking psycho brain. Calling me names won't make you feel good about yourself. Try lose some weight and fix you crazy ass brain. That might help you to hold a guy. You trying to cause drama? You have seriously lost it. He have his own life and I’m sorry if it pisses you off that he's completely happy now. Move the fuck on and grow up! I feel bad for your future boyfriend.


Worry about your own life and stay the hell out of mine and his.

SUMMER 2012

Dear summer,

We meet again

Bring the bright and sunny to everyone,

Some get the dry and flaky skin.

Dear summer,

We meet again, 

You bring so much memory,

Some cause my laughter even more cause the tears.

Dear summer,

We meet again,

You were once the best season,

but now I think your not.

Dear summer, 

We meet again,

I thought I'm not over him,

But when you get here I'm ready to find out that I am.

24/7?

Dear stranger,

How are you today? I hope your day has been awesome, just like you are. My day was pretty much the same, school, school and work. Not much going on this week, which I'm so happy about. But tests and finals are just around the corner like really2 around the corner. And all I've doing is SKYPE-ING. Like hours and hours and hours. Lets just say its a never ending call.

I'm thinking of going higher prolly like 72 hours plus plus. I don't know, kinda hard to reach that number might kill my computer. So you, yes you, you think I don't know that you have been creeping on here? :P
So you think this number can get any higher?

Love, 

<3  Syairah.

A Picture Says it All.

Sunday! Team DODOL went FATTOS

Date: April 8th, 2012

Places: QQ Bubble Tea and Kei's Living Room

Time: Sometime afternoon

Kak Chah and Abg Sham's drawing on
the wall in  QQ Bubble Tea.

Kei's exquisite drawing for
QQ Bubble Tea before she graduate.

Azim's drawing, sooo ummm IDK. Cartoonish.

Kei . Zariff

Pineapple + Apple

Yeah! I'm HOT like that.

Dodols

Thank YOU Aishah.

Stuffed tofu, I guess?

Yummy! Yummy! 100% yet?

So last Saturday, randomly and spontaneously I feel like baking. So called my mom for the recipe. I was expecting a secret family recipe or something, but ehh she used the recipe online. I'll put the link on the end of this post.

Hours later... TAADAAA! the kitchen was a mess. The sink was half full, well it still is. 

Managed to clean this up. :)

Buuuuut... I baked the AWESOMESS CARROT CAKE EVER!! Mhmm, like I feel so awesome and I know I am awesome like that. :D So had this 'dodol' try it out, well honestly it was a surprise for him, see if I can beat the one supposedly "THE BEST AND THE ONLY CARROT CAKE" he ever had. BOOYAH!! I scored it. Alhamdulillah. No need to spend RM8 for a slice of your ex-best and ex-only carrot cake anymore. While you can get it free. Like my ibu said "Free food always sedap". It's offficial now I might not be the smartest girl in my class. But I'm sure a good cook and an awesome baker. :P

Freshly baked from the oven.

Abdul Azim, tell me you love it or I'll make sure this is the last thing you gonna eat  through your mouth. :D

Feel free to try the recipe, make a carrot cake lover fond to you. <3

http://www.joyofbaking.com/CarrotCake.html

Random question of the day:

What kind of secret ingredient you usually put in a cake?

Progress

Being in a position where you kinda the girl who some people think you took another girl's happiness really sucks. My happiness was once taken too. Can't blame her.But all I could say to myself is ' I'm leaving beause you're happier than ever when you're with her. 'Why people always blame others on what ever happened to them? Can't they see that god have better plan for them? Don't get me wrong, I used to think that way. The lost, the pain and the anger towards him mostly the anger towards myself just took the best of me. Wondering what did I do wrong? Was it because I can't always be with you? Was is because I care too much? Was it because I'm me? The truth does hurt, soo bad. But the not knowing why he left hurt the most. Now, today, Allah sent me someone who cares for me, Alhamdulillah, he's  better that what I had in the past. We both remind each other to be a better person and mostly to be a better muslim. But the question is, is this just another quick stop or the end of it? Wallahualam.

Puppy love.

Ever wonder how some couple started with just a puppy love then it grew to a real true love. And some couple started with an inttention of love and end up getting hurt. Remembering my puppy lover its just to cute. Being 9, thought you're inlove with a boy in another class and ride the same bus to and back from school. But he doesn't know you had been crushing on him the whole year. All the sudden you hear romours that he's  kinda into another girl. 1st boy. 1st crush. 1st heartache. Now, millions of years had passed and he's not even with the girl he liked and he's on your facebook friend list and still have no idea that you once had a crush on him. Saying 'Hi' just gonna be weird. And seeing him  as a man and you realized what was there that make you like him so much to even shed a tear for him back then when you were 9. It's silly when you think it back. How pure the feelings was as a kid? Why can't  all puppy love turn into true love.

REDHA.

JODOH itu rahsia ALLAH SWT.
SEKUAT mana kita setia 
SEHEBAT mana kita merancang 
SELAMA mana kita menunggu
SEKERAS mana kita bersabar
SEJUJUR mana kita menerima kekasih kita
Jika ALLAH SWT Tidak Menulis JODOH Kita Bersama Kekasih Kita..Kita Tetap Tidak Akan Bersama Dengannya

.. Wonders ..

Sometimes the heart just wants what it wants. But does it worth the risk to get it broken?

Everything comes with a price, it's just the matter of you willing or not to pay the price.

Men are simple creatures. But they think women are complicated. Women too are simple creature. But we think men don't even bother to understand. But the reality is we both have different natures.

Come to think of it, do perfect relationship really exist? What will it cost to have that 'happily ever after' relationship? As we grew older everything gets more complicated. The broken hearted tend to shut their hearts

close. The ones who never had their heart broken just can't wait to at least feels how it feels like. And the heart breaker just around, breaking more and more hearts. It's just the perfect cycle. How can two people really stop loving each other? It is even possible? Or they just feels like they're missing out on things when they are tied up together. Or they just found something new and more exciting. Does excitement matter in a relationship?No one will ever understand how our hearts work. It's like a maze with no way out, no game over, you just have to make sure you win.